Thursday, December 11, 2008

Mistaken Ryan

Today I thought about some of my worst 'mistakes'.
I have written stuff that I didn't mean, which had repercussions that I did not think expect.
I have acted in a way that I am not happy about, which made me come across as the loathed 'bad guy'.
Then I thought about how that could effect me in the future and how it has already affected me.
There were many negatives, but then I thought about it properly.
All those foolish actions I took made me end up here, made me grow as a person, made my character mature, made me a better person. Can events that have done that kind of good really be called 'mistakes'?
I regret the things I did, but the after effect of them has made me into a better person, with a greater understanding of things around me. I am a learner. i have learned lots from those events. If you learn from your actions, you can never make a mistake, merely an event from which you learn from. So everything that caused me upset or embarrassment was really just making me become a better person, it was never as bad as I thought. those so called 'mistakes' made me who I am today. A happy person with great friends. So I shouldn't regret. I should see the positive side, I am a much better person after writing those things and acting the way I did. The negative side was a few people disliked me, some people hold grudges, some people can't move on. I have moved on and grown as a person. I am now a better person, I think harder, I know more, I feel wiser, I know when to stop. Any 'mistake' I make from now on is just another event that will make me grow as a person. making 'mistakes' is not the way to become a better person, but learning from them is. If I do not learn from a regrettable action, that is a mistake. But I am a learner. I learn. I mature.

A learning kid, I try to do the right thing and act the right way, but sometimes I end up doing the wrong thing, but I learn. I am a learner. So I never make mistakes, merely events which I learn from. that sums up this Ryan kid.